Songs of Experience

“What do you think a human being is?” [Wallace] Shawn asks in The Fever. “A human being happens to be an unprotected little wriggling creature . . . without a shell or a hide or even any fur, just thrown out onto the earth like an eye that’s been pulled from its socket, like a shucked oyster that’s trying to crawl along the ground. We need to build our own shells.”

from the article Catnip in June 1, 2009 New Yorker magazine.

I loved Wallace Shawn in My Dinner with Andre … in my all-time top ten list of movies.
What’s at the top of your list?

Today my mother gave me some good advice.
She said, “If you no longer have any goals, then do your chores.”

There are always chores to be done.

But this does beg the question …

That’s me in the corner …

lyrics from R.E.M.:

Oh, life is bigger
It’s bigger than you
And you are not me
The lengths that I will go to
The distance in your eyes
Oh no, I’ve said too much
I set it up

(chorus)
That’s me in the corner
That’s me in the spotlight, I’m
Losing my religion
Trying to keep up with you
And I don’t know if I can do it
Oh no, I’ve said too much
I haven’t said enough

Sometimes a purchased gift just isn’t enough to show how much you love someone … so I made this painting/collage for Dave’s anniversary present. Embedded in the piece is my bluets poem and, if you look closely, a photo of the two of us!

Too bad anniversary number 9 isn’t “cloth ” but pottery.
that would have been perfect.

Yesterday, my friend invited me to stay for oolong tea while our children had an old-fashioned play-date. I felt inspired to bake a pie in celebration of friendship. It is actually more of a tart, but we call it “Betsy’s Pie” (named after another friend who taught me how to make this delicious pastry):

cream 1/2 cup brown sugar
with one stick butter.
mix in one cup flour, 1 tsp. vanilla and then one beaten egg.
next, press dough into lightly greased tart pan

layer fruit in design of choice using plums, or peaches (or apricots).
dot with 5-6 bits of butter
squeeze juice of one lemon on top
sprinkle with 2 Tbs sugar

bake for 30-40 min.
in preheated 350-degree oven

let cool before eating.
best served with a steaming china cup of tea …
with a friend who enjoys conversation.

Yum!

here is Rosie with the plum pie she made last year:

Las Mañanitas Lyrics:

Estas son las mañanitas, que cantaba el Rey David,
Hoy por ser día de tu santo, te las cantamos a ti,
Despierta, mi bien, despierta, mira que ya amaneció,
Ya los pajarillos cantan, la luna ya se metió.

Que linda está la mañana en que vengo a saludarte,
Venimos todos con gusto y placer a felicitarte,
Ya viene amaneciendo, ya la luz del día nos dio,
Levántate de mañana, mira que ya amaneció.

Translation:

This is the morning song that King David sang
Because today is your saint’s day we’re singing it for you
Wake up, my dear, wake up, look it is already dawn
The birds are already singing and the moon has set

How lovely is the morning in which I come to greet you
We all came with joy and pleasure to congratulate you
The morning is coming now, the sun is giving us its light
Get up in the morning, look it is already dawn

I love my new “appearance” on this blog, especially the pinking sheers cut bottom of the header.
Nice work, Paisley creator!

This morning Dave and I had the pleasure of accompanying our 7 year-old to a spotlight student of the month breakfast. We shared a table with 1st grader, Shawn, who kept us entertained during the certificate presentation with his many out-loud, uncontrolled blurtings (despite our grown-up “shhh’s”) … the favorite of which was, “Did you know a snake has no eye-lids?!” Of course, what made this whole scene so funny was that the theme for this month’s spotlight student was self-discipline.

Most women my age, and many younger, dye or color or highlight their hair so much so that no one knows how old anybody is these days. Men, too, are forgoing graying temples (which used to be considered “distinguished’) in order to look younger. I am re-reading Margart Craven’s “I Heard the Owl Call My Name” and today I pondered this line: “Her hair was white, which, in an Indian, means she was very old.” It used to be that with all people, not just “in an Indian,” white hair was a sign of being very old … and, hopefully, very wise. What are we avoiding when we cover the gray? What are we afraid of facing? I have vowed never to color my hair … but maybe someday I, too, will be afraid of rejection from this youth-obsessed culture and will pretend to be younger than I am. It makes me sad to think of living a lie just to fit in.

And I wonder, is it also deception if I follow my hair-cutter’s suggestion: “Just tell people your gray hairs are platinum highlights.” ?

KM died yesterday
at 2:00pm
while I was taking a nap
knowing I would wake up
in time
to pick up Lizzie at the bus stop
and, later, Rosie
Sarah Jane would text
to tell me when I was to get her.
My taxi duties feel like heaven today
thank you, God.

L’chayim!

Sarah Jane just ran a 12:14 2-mile PR in a duel meet against “nobody.” Her splits were 6:08 and 6:06 and she ran in trainers. When I spoke to her before the race she was so casual and relaxed saying, “Coach wants me to run it as a tempo run b/c there’s no competition; what do you think?” “Yeah,” I agreed, “It’s hot. Save your hard effort for Wednesday.” But when the gun went off and she found herself in a pack of boys [mixed race], she got swept along and before we knew it she was on her way to qualify for regionals. What is so amazing about this, so epiphanous, is that she has been unable to train with the track team for a month now because she has been in play rehearsal for a musical that just ended Saturday night. Sarah Jane has been running workouts by herself at dawn and dusk, before school and after play practice, to stay in shape for her beloved track coach. She told me, “The thing I love to do most is drama, but the PEOPLE I love most are my track family.”

Me too, Saries – except for the drama part

Normally, I hate hearing lawn mowers on a Sunday afternoon (I understand Portland, OR has a public ordinance for leaf-blowing hours per week?) … but today, when I heard the familiar drone of my next door neighbor’s riding mower I was more than happy to endure this sound pollution. Six months ago he had a brain tumor removed.

Ride, Johnny, ride.
Amen.

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love
joy
peace
patience
kindness
goodness
faithfulness
gentleness
self-control
(self-control?
that’s an odd duck)

Thanks Jonathan, my hairdresser/pastor for reminding me of this lovely list.
Galations 5:22

I made birthday breakfast crepes for Rosie this morning. She ate one with chocolate and raspberries, one with olives and goat cheese, and saved the “classic” for last – lemon and sugar. Thanks for the recipe, Bill:

2 cups milk
3 whisked eggs
1 cup flour
6 Tbs melted butter
pinch salt

use a hot crepe pan, greased with butter or splash of oil before each crepe.

Bon Appetit!!

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The bluets are rioting in my side yard.
Humble yellow faces shout at the sun
one by one by one;
I am overcome.

I shall not mow today.

To see more of michele maynard’s amazing art, go to: www.bmichelemaynard.com

” I’m going to check out of this bourgeois motel, push myself away from the dinner table and say, “No more Jell-o for me, Mom!”
-from Peggy Sue Got Married

e·piph·a·ny (-pf-n)
n. pl. e·piph·a·nies
1. Epiphany
a. A Christian feast celebrating the manifestation of the divine nature of Jesus to the Gentiles as represented by the Magi.
b. January 6, on which this feast is traditionally observed.
2. A revelatory manifestation of a divine being.
3.
a. A sudden manifestation of the essence or meaning of something.
b. A comprehension or perception of reality by means of a sudden intuitive realization: “I experienced an epiphany, a spiritual flash that would change the way I viewed myself” Frank Maier.

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Wild Geese
by, Mary Oliver

You do not have to be good.
You do not have to walk on your knees
for a hundred miles through the desert repenting.
You only have to let the soft animal of your body
love what it loves.
Tell me about despair, yours, and I will tell you mine.
Meanwhile the world goes on.
Meanwhile the sun and the clear pebbles of the rain
are moving across the landscapes,
over the prairies and the deep trees,
the mountains and the rivers.
Meanwhile the wild geese, high in the clean blue air,
are heading home again.
Whoever you are, no matter how lonely,
the world offers itself to your imagination,
calls to you like the wild geese, harsh and exciting —
over and over announcing your place
in the family of things.